Both Ben and Socrates I had from when they were tiny pups to adult females, living to be well over three years, each. They were my life.
Alas, my most recent addition to my rat-obsessed life, has passed on. For Nate, the words come more easily to describe him. I didn't raise him, and though he means a great deal, there was less time to get attached- doesn't mean the loss of him doesn't hit deep.
There was no solid proof to of what happened to him, just his actions.
I adopted him from the Humane Society. When I got him, he was a little older, already a well estabolished attitude, and a mistrust towards people. This almost coast him his life, but luckily, I convinced my parents that I could afford to take care of him, and that I could balance my time between school, my girls and showing him that not all people are heartless bastards.
Just as much as I had to put into the relationship, he returned. It took him a really long time to lighten up around people, and I never really could trust him around my friends or anyone, incase he chose to act out, or they were to get loud suddenly. He was never potty trained like the girls, so Walmart made a fortune on me buying catbeds.
But what he did do, was get an extra year and a half, filled with fruits and vegetables, attention, love and compassion. And he gave back support and company when I needed it most- when my two most precious girls passed away, and he gave laughs and frustrations, distraction and reason.
I know I will miss him, and I hope that what ever did happen to him in his past, what ever caused him such trauma, such pain, and to in turn, mistrust people so much, I hope that throughout this last year he got to see through my self and others that did handle him here, that compassion exists, and understanding and love, too.
That is all for tonight. Tah
Nate (Birthdate unknown)
[Arrival] Sept '05- August 28, 2006
Allow me to offer up my condolences. You've just had the worst luck lately. But you can rest assured that saving him from what was in store was a very noble gesture, and that makes whatever time you had with him worthwhile.
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